Hi.. My name is Babyrlynne.. Just call me Bee for short.. I am writing this letter in behalf of our papa who is battling a stage 4 Non Hodgkin Lymphoma..
It was the worst thing we’ve ever heard from his doctor.. Cancer.. We were saddened by the result on December 2015..
We did not opt for chemotherapy for so many reasons.. Just to name one, our papa also has a valvular disease were his heart pumps abnormally at times according to his doctor..
Right now, we are on alternative medicines specifically 4LIFE (Transfer Factor Plus) and multivitamins to boost his resistance.. We’ve been battling NHL together with papa since then..
Financially, yes, we are having problems since we (my eldest sister) need to provide for the house (groceries, water, electricity, etc.) and at the same time juggling papa’s medical needs every month.. Just for his 1 month supply of 4LIFE, multivitamins, sustenance, etc.. We are already having a hard time since we are not financially able..
As a normal employee in the Philippines, our salary would all go to our daily expenses at home and for our fare back and forth to work.. Our mama is a housewife and takes really good care of our papa even when she is a person with disability (hip joint replacement)..
Papa was admitted again last December 29, 2016 because his hemoglobin dropped to 40 when the normal count they say was 110 to 130 for men.. It was not the usual new year we have always celebrated at home but we were happy as a family since our papa was feeling well during that time..
I have read so many stories like ours that got help from people around the world that they don’t even know.. for me they are not just strangers.. they are angels sent by God.. so here I am.. trying my luck for our papa’s health.. in advance, I thank YOU.. God bless YOU and your FAMILY.. ❤
1.14.2017 UPDATE: Papa got hospitalized again, 10 days after he got discharged due to low hemoglobin.. Aside from having trouble looking for blood donors.. Financially, we are broke.. Thank God for friends and family though, we got thru it.. but the expenses do not end here..
1.24.2017 UPDATE: Papa went to his doctor today to have his blood checked again.. Unfortunately.. After 7 days, his hemoglobin dropped from 101 to 73.. Right now we are at a lost on what to do.. Our Papa’s insurance is not enough anymore for admission and all.. We need all the help we can get..
1.24.2017 UPDATE: Our papa posted this on his wall:
Why would you give thanks to GOD if you are given pains, terminal
illnesses & other unpleasant & unwanted trials?
– It’s been a little more than a year now since my battle began against something that only a microscope can see. My doctor advised me to have a biopsy Dec 2015 but I decided to have it performed January 2016 because I don’t want to ruin the spirit of Christmas with my family. Came 2016, biopsy was performed & somehow I know how it feels like to be slaughtered. Then the moment of truth: Malignant, NHL Stage 3 (Non-Hodgkin Lymphoma) — simply put, Cancer of the lymph nodes (I’m on stage 4 as of this writing, btw). The 1st thing that came into my mind, is the largest “WHY?”
I went home w/ an empty skull. I didn’t have the intention of informing my family because of the thought that “what they don’t know won’t hurt”. But their loving & threatening persistence (esp my beloved wife who says “indi ka manugid ako to makadto kg mamangkot”) had finally cracked my silence. If it’s hard to break bad news to good people, imagine how harder it could be to break the bad news to your own family?
Then came the avalanche of questions esp. the ever famous “Why me?” I began to sulk in depression; I had to swing in diff moods in diff places everyday of my life. Home: immortal; Work/Classroom: full of energy & sometimes terror to students who are pasaway sa labs; Alone: question marks, emptiness, helplessness, paranoia.
As the calendar of 2016 continued falling I became sickly. There’s no month that I don’t either catch a flu, tonsilitis, fever, chills & what-have-you. I’ve been in & out of the hospital (damo na kami RMC nga ulonan). Hope seems to have abandoned me as the last quarter of the year approaches. Now I’m beginning to question HIS wisdom! But Mr. Bean (Rowan Atkinson) silenced me! In one of his videos I saw in FB he punched me big time w/ some of the lines, “should we always question HIS wisdom, HIS motives?” and “MY ways are not your ways.”
The last 3 months of 2016 had me admitted in Riverside because my hemoglobin kept on dropping while my WBC stays steady uphigh (111 was the highest one time; the highest should only be 10). Oct, Nov, & Dec 28, 2016 (yes we spent the new year there) & back again in Jan 13, 2017. I have already a total blood transfusion of 11 bags (Oct: 2 bags; Nov: 2 bags; Dec 4 bags because my hemoglobin dropped to 40, a near-death scenario; & Jan 13 3-bags). Today Jan 24 I had another CBC & still my hemoglobin (73) is way below than normal (135-175 gms/L). The platelet is also way below normal.
“Suicide is not an answer, but it’s always an option” as the line goes. One form of such is the Chemotherapy w/c nobody gave a green light anyway so I’m on alternative medication ever since; expensive just the same though. But due to financial support, selfless, never-ending love, care, sacrifices, patience, trust & prayers of my beloved wife (Jph) & our children (‘Darlynne & Babylynne), my sister (Antonietta) & bro-in-law, my bro (Lorenzo) who, in spite of the distance & tight situation is able to find ways — the “fight must go on.” Of course, there are also angels in disguise of relatives, colleagues, friends, batch mates, students & others whom i don’t even know that give me the will to continue. Why, some have somewhat went out of the encompassing boundaries of friendship & made the battle even more worth fighting.
Now I Thank my God for this sickness. It totally opened my senses to all the things, even the minute & relatively insignificant ones that were somehow unintentionally or otherwise taken for granted all these years. Naanad ko nga ako ang gaasikaso sa lawas ko sa tanan nga butang maski gusto sg asawa ko kay nanamian sya mag-butones sg polo sg iya bana antes maglakat sa opisina pero laka pa sa unto ko ang beses nga nahimo ya ni. Tapos sg ulihi husto ya na lang ko sibinan kay haluson na ko katiknol. It’s so heart-breaking, it totally melt me into bended knees. Small act of love such as this that I usually take for granted is now a big deal for me.
Come Jan 25 or later, is another blood transfusion. I don’t know if my earthly mission is coming to a close although I asked for a sign & HE gave me a very promising one that it ain’t over yet, but this predicament has nonetheless gave me the time to give thanks for all the blessings I received, appreciate everything life has to offer, ask for forgiveness & return to HIS fold. Kon asta lg gid ko di so be it. HIS will be done. At least I won’t go w/o expressing (todo na gid, urot2x, full speed) the love I have for my beloved family.
1.25.2017 UPDATE: Papa is currently out of the house to visit his doctor and have a blood transfusion afterwards to increase his hemoglobin. We will be out in a while as well too to scout blood banks for B+ donors. If you are one or you know one who has a blood type B+, please contact me thru my cellphone number: 09357724421 please include your price too.
Papa will have his blood transfusion the next day since the schedule for out-patient is from 9AM to 5PM only..
Fundraising campaign is already on a roll.. THANK YOU EVERYONE!! ♥
1.26.2017 UPDATE: Papa had his 1st round of blood transfusion today..
Papa was trying to hold back his tears upon knowing the outpouring of support from everyone, even from people unfamiliar to us.. Thank you..
Thank you.. Thank you.. ❤ — at Riverside Medical Center.
10:20 in the evening.. Papa is feeling a lot of pain somewhere on his lower left hip.. We just kept on rubbing Omega liniment on that area as he requested.. Please pray that the pain will go away..
Prayers, donations or in-kind never stopped pouring this day as well.. We will be posting an update soon regarding this.. Also, we would like to apologize for our late replies on our FB accounts and text messages since we are processing for papa’s blood transfusion and hospital papers..
We also have received numerous B+ donors for papa today mostly from people we barely know.. Thank you!! ♥
As of writing, we have already prepared another bag for papa’s blood transfusion tomorrow.. We will post an update if ever we will need another bag of B+ blood for him.. For all the kind donors of papa on our list.. Thank you.. We’ll keep in touch.. ♥
The pain finally subsided.. Praise the Lord!!
01.27.2017 UPDATE: Papa waiting for his doctor to get an authorization regarding blood transfusion..
Still waiting at MAB (Medical Arts Building)..
Most likely papa’s blood transfusion is not going to take place today.. So we will give it another shot tomorrow.. We will just wait for papa’s doctor so we can have the authorization letter regarding his blood transfusion for tomorrow (if possible).. If tomorrow won’t push thru as well, the soonest papa can have his blood transfusion is on Tuesday.. Thank you everyone for all the prayers and for lending us a helping hand.. God bless you all..
We didn’t make it in time for the out patient scheduled blood transfusion (1-5PM) so we’ll have to wait ’til Tuesday next week.. We are own our way to RMC (Riverside Medical Center) right now to negotiate for a slot tomorrow (God willing)..
We are looking around the mall to canvass the juicer we saw on TV called Nutri Blitzer.. We have seen this before but we were frustrated upon knowing the price.. It was worth Php6,999.00 that time..
Tonight I felt that I was being guided by God.. I thought I wouldn’t see this juicer but then I had that feeling that God wanted me to turn this direction, and so I did.. Upon turning right, we saw exactly the item we were looking for!!
I was thinking that the price probably would be the same as before.. but I felt God’s presence tonight when the saleslady said that they have a promo for this month.. from Php 6,999.00 it’s down to Php 3,999..
Immediately when we got back home, we told papa about this but he was a bit hesitant though.. because he said it’s still too expensive.. but we told him that the purpose of this campaign is all for his health and that includes this juicer too.. That ended there, he said yes!!
With this we can create a lot of nutritious drinks for papa and we don’t need to look for expensive juices anymore.. This is way healthier for papa and we are now sure that what he is drinking does not contain any artificial sugar..
This would never have been possible without all of your help people.. Thank you thank you thank you.. God bless.. ♥
01.28.2017 UPDATE: Papa is having his 2nd round of blood transfusion today (will upload picture any time today).. we will also include a picture of papa’s angel in the chemo room yesterday who made this schedule possible today.. Thank God!!
After papa’s schedule today, we will go and buy his juicer.. Papa seemed very excited today to finish his blood transfusion.. Actually yesterday he kept telling us that he wanted to go to the mall.. to Lagoon.. to La Salle.. he mentioned a lot really.. After the diagnosis (Dec. 2015) if it’s not in the hospital, he is just at home..
There are times back in 2016 though that he can go back to work in La Salle but he was forcing himself that time because he said that he already has a lot of absences (without pay) and that we won’t have enough money by the time his salary comes too.. We tried our best to convince him but to no avail.. Until that time came that he can’t almost walk around the house without getting tired fast.. The reason was that his hemoglobin keeps dropping.. Once he’s done with his blood transfusion, days after that it would drop again.. That was our dilemma ever since the diagnosis.. but now, we feel that we are not alone in this battle.. We have YOU with us.. ♥
With everyone’s help.. YOU made all of this possible for papa.. Thank YOU for supporting our campaign.. We can’t thank YOU enough.. ♥
Papa has finished his blood transfusion for this day.. Mama was with him all the way.. Also, thank you to the nurse in the chemo room who we knew only by the name, “Carl / Karl” for putting papa on the list for today’s transfusion..
Earlier papa had 4 missed shot of IV insertions.. we can just imagine the pain that he has to go through..
It was the first experience for papa to have experienced four misfires of IV insertions in spite of plenty of veins crisscrossing his arm..
Papa finished his blood transfusion past 4PM already and after that we went straight to SM to buy his juicer.. but before that, we had our lunch at the food court for the first time since October of 2016.. We also bumped into our tita Tonette and her husband tito Luis who have been very supportive ever since.. it was a happy lunch / dinner for all of us..
After that we went to buy papa’s juicer.. at first he was in total disagree again of buying it (actually, until we reached the house that he finally changed his mood).. he finds the juicer very expensive (it was Php4,999 not Php 3,999) and for him it’s not that important..
Papa was laughing along with us while we tasted his juice but he didn’t like the first combination of beet, apple, carrot, and honey (you should’ve seen his face).. We made another combination which is pineapple and lychee with a little juice of the pineapple.. He actually finished the small cup with a wide smile on his face.. You can just imagine how he missed drinking juices..
Papa will have his next CBC on Friday, February 3.. We hope and pray that his hemoglobin will no longer drop.. Please keep those prayers coming.. We love you everyone!! God bless.. ♥
01.29.2017 UPDATE: I asked papa how he feels.. He said that he’s fighting body is back to its 90% again.. Since the diagnosis, this was the first time he told me this.. Thank you everyone for boosting papa’s morale as well.. From the bottom of our hearts, thank YOU, we love you and God bless you all..
By the way, I made papa another juice.. This time, a little of the beetroot and more of apples to balance the “grassy” taste (beetroot).. My first try though received a not so good reaction from him (as seen on the picture above) but I added 2 pcs of lychee to add more sweetness to it and he liked it!! Yey!!
These are papa’s 1st batch of medicines.. We will be buying papa’s 2nd batch of medicines tomorrow.. Today, papa is planning to go to church again later.. This will be our 2nd time to go to church together after papa’s diagnosis.. We can’t thank you enough everyone.. God bless you all..
01.30.2017 UPDATE: Papa loves drinking his juices now.. He would request his preferred fruit to be mixed with vegetables (carrots/cucumber/beetroot/etc) and a little honey.. Earlier, he was very happy with his green apple, pineapple, and honey mix juice..
01.30.2017 UPDATE Papa has trouble breathing since yesterday.. He also experienced some palpitations.. we’ve searched papa’s medicines again and we saw something about Prednisone (one of papa’s medicines).. Here are some of the side effects of this medicine: (I’ve placed a checked mark on the side effects that papa has been experiencing since yesterday)
•blurred vision, eye pain, or seeing halos around lights;
•swelling, rapid weight gain, feeling short of breath (✔);
•severe depression, feelings of extreme happiness or sadness, changes in personality or behavior, seizure (convulsions);
•bloody or tarry stools, coughing up blood;
•pancreatitis (severe pain in your upper stomach spreading to your back, nausea (✔) and vomiting (✔-almost), fast heart rate (✔));
•low potassium (confusion, uneven heart rate (✔), extreme thirst, increased urination (✔), leg discomfort, muscle weakness or limp feeling (✔));
•or dangerously high blood pressure (severe headache, blurred vision, buzzing in your ears, anxiety, confusion, chest pain, shortness of breath, uneven heartbeats (✔), seizure).
Other common Prednisone side effects may include:
•sleep problems (insomnia), mood changes;
•increased appetite(✔), gradual weight gain;
•acne, increased sweating(✔), dry skin, thinning skin, bruising or discoloration;
•slow wound healing;
•headache (✔), dizziness(✔), spinning sensation;
•nausea(✔), stomach pain, bloating;
•or changes in the shape or location of body fat (especially in your arms, legs, face, neck, breasts, and waist).
According to this site ( https://www.drugs.com/prednisone.html ) we can’t just let papa suddenly stop drinking this medicine.. We will need to talk this out with doctor Vencer tomorrow..
For all the people supporting us in this battle.. THANK YOU.. God bless you all.. We love you!! ♥
01.31.2017 UPDATE: We went to Medical Plaza to talk with papa’s doctor regarding his medicine (Prednisone).. We arrived after 2 jeepney rides from Celine Homes.. Papa was catching his breath all the time.. We tried to convince him to ride the taxi instead but we failed since he is concerned of the funds.. We are trying our best to budget everything for papa’s health..
We don’t know how to make papa feel comfortable earlier.. While waiting for Dr. Vencer to arrive, we looked for a bench near a window so papa can have some cool air..
02.01.2017 UPDATE: Papa has been feeling a lot of pain on his back (lower left part).. Tonight (10 in the evening) we rushed papa to Riverside Medical Center..
At first, papa does not want to be admitted since he is concerned of the funds.. and he said “Naluoy na ko bi sa inyo tanan..” 😦 We told him not to worry about us since we are strong and that he is our strength, so he needs to fight back.. My heart was broken upon hearing papa say this to mama, “Asta san-o na lang ko ma??” 😥 Mama told papa to be strong and that he can do this.. then mama was persistently telling papa that they need to go to the hospital so they can help him with the pain he is feeling.. Papa then replied “Indi ko na kilala.. Indi ko na didto kay indi ko na ka tol-tol..) Mama then started crying and so did I.. Mama and I kept glancing at each other.. Thinking why he was answering us like that.. Like as if he is hearing a different question, like he was hallucinating or what.. Then Tita said that he is joking.. We totally forgot that he is a natural joker.. He said that so that we won’t bring him to the hospital because he said that they will just inject him with this and that, they will just hurt his precious skin, etc. etc. etc. Seeing him smile when he said that lifted my energy back up again.. after everybody’s persistent effort in telling papa that he needs to go to the hospital, he gave us a thumbs up (go signal) and so we did..
For those who want to visit papa later, he is admitted at Riverside Medical Center (ward)..
For all the pouring help (in all forms), we can’t thank you enough.. God bless you all.. Please keep those prayers coming for papa.. ♥
02.02.2017 UPDATE: When we arrived at the hospital.. Papa smiled upon seeing us.. I asked how he was feeling.. The pain lessened he said but he feels better than last night..
The pain papa was feeling since last night lessened.. it still hurts he said but the frequency is not that much like last night..
When they arrived at the hospital earlier, mama said papa was screaming at the ER because of the pain.. Papa relieved the moment when we arrived today.. He also showed me pictures of him taken by mama while the nurse injected him with his IV..
Earlier, we took this precious moment.. very cute actually.. Papa was eating his favorite dose of grapes.. when we turned around to look at papa, he was fast asleep.. but the cute part was when we saw papa’s hands still inside the bag of grapes..
Papa’s hemoglobin increased from 73 to 95.. Unfortunately, papa’s platelet count is low (50+).. Papa’s WBC is still high (60) but it’s better than 101..
02.03.2017 UPDATE: Mama had to go home because she was not feeling well and so she can also rest..
The pain is still there but it is more tolerable papa said.. While we were eating lunch together, I asked if he was okay since he seems to be looking at nowhere.. He said that his chest feels tight and that he feels weird again.. It flashed back to me again when we were hugging each other and crying our hearts out.. he told me that he feels like as if he won’t last long.. I hate it when we talk about “that” topic..
Last night.. Papa texted me and told me that students from La Salle are doing their own fundraising campaign for him by selling cupcakes.. It touched us all especially papa.. You guys always make us feel special and that we are not alone.. I would also like to take this opportunity to say thank you to our La Salle family.. Especially papa’s ITC family.. to all the departments in La Salle.. I can’t name all but you guys are definitely engraved in our hearts & soul.. Thank you for all the effort in helping us.. To all my batch mates, my sisters’, and so as our parents’.. Shout out to all our papa’s students as well.. Most especially to all our family, relatives and friends too.. For all the people whom we barely know.. SALAMAT!! ❤ This would have never been possible without your help.. We love you all.. ❤
02.04.2017 UPDATE: Papa got discharged from the hospital.. Papa’s creatinine was high.. UTI was ruled out though..
02.05.2017 UPDATE: Papa was feeling a bit groggy but he really wanted for us all to go to church together.. Mama did her best to tell papa to cancel papa’s plan today but to no avail..
Right after the mass, we went to the mall because he wanted to go to the grocery store again and shop with us.. His last was I think October of 2015..
He was having a hard time breathing while we walk around.. We bought a 4L distilled water for his new mineral drops food supplement.. It’s called CMD Cell Mineral Drops food supplement.. This was referred by papa’s “brothers” from another mother, sir Ernz and sir Dee.. ♥
Papa will have his checkup tomorrow with Dr. Balles.. Please help us pray that everything will be alright..
Papa will have his blood transfusion again next week to increase his hemoglobin to 100+ once more..
Our never ending THANKS to all of you, our ANGELS.. ♥
02.24.2017 UPDATE:Papa is currently at the OPD of RMC.. waiting for his CBC result.. If papa’s hemoglobin is low again, most likely he will be admitted tonight..
Papa’s hemoglobin dropped to 70 again.. He is now admitted at RMC and will have blood transfusions in the next days to come.. According to the resident doctor, papa will be needing 3 bags of blood.. Fortunately, RMC have supplies of blood tonight..
02.25.2017 UPDATE: Papa had 2 bags of blood today..
Papa just sleeping most of the time today..
Thanks to Sir Dee, Karl, Angel and Alice for visiting papa earlier.. Shout out to our Tita Tonette and Tito Luis as well for the never ending support.. ♥
For all our prayer warriors, THANK YOU and WE LOVE YOU!! ♥
02.26.2017 UPDATE: Papa is back home again and resting.. Thank you to all our prayer warriors.. ❤
03.03.2017 UPDATE: Papa has been feeling well after the blood transfusion.. Right now, he is back to work..
He is planning to retire any time this year so he can focus on his health.. We thank all of our prayer warriors and to all the people who made this campaign possible.. You know who you are.. :’)
We are so blessed to have you all in this journey.. We will continue to provide everyone with updates still thru this campaign..
We love you all!! ♥
03.06.2017 UPDATE: Papa had his CBC today..
Papa was feeling tired..
03.07.2017 UPDATE: Papa got his medical report today.. and we’re very happy seeing his hemoglobin is 94.. his WBC from 25 increased to 34.7 though..
03.09.2017 UPDATE: Papa is currently addicted with the teleserye “Ika-6 Na Utos”.. X) After watching Eat Bulaga, we would all watch this together.. Unfortunately, he was not able to watch an episode or two last week since he had a schedule with his doctor that time and another session of blood transfusion as well.. So, here they are.. watching the replay on Youtube.. XD
03.13.2017 UPDATE: Papa was not given by her doctor a fit to work certificate so here he is right now at home, sleeping and just resting.. Days ago, papa also got his results from yet another blood transfusion.. With God’s grace, his hemoglobin is back at the 90 mark..
There was a time yesterday when he told us that he will not have another blood transfusion, just stay at home and wait for his hemoglobin to drop at 20.. 😦 *sighs*
Then we told him about the story we found in the internet.. A woman who was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer.. She aggressively changed her diet.. No sugar, junk foods, basically all that’s not good for the body.. She said that it was not an easy process.. she also experienced what papa is experiencing right now, depression.. but she conquered cancer.. now, she is 5 years (and counting) cancer free..
We are very positive with papa’s condition as well.. Before, he can’t even go out of the house or even walk towards the kitchen.. Now, he gets to go to mass every Sunday.. He has not missed a mass yet.. :’) He can also visit the mall once in a while if he feels like wandering about..
We would like to ask everyone to please continue to pray for our papa’s healing.. We love you all.. God bless you and your family as well.. ♥
03.23.2017 UPDATE: Papa had a 37.7 fever.. this afternoon, it dropped to 37.1.. Once in a while he still keeps on complaining of the pain on his abdomen and hips..
03.24.2017 UPDATE: Papa said he has been feeling well these days.. His only complain was the pain (tolerable) on his abdomen and hips..
This morning, papa’s temperature is back to 37.7 again.. Supposed to be he will have another CBC today but papa said that he feels lazy and tired..
03.31.2017 UPDATE: Papa got his CBC result this afternoon and unfortunately, his hemoglobing dropped to 67.. Papa was immediately admitted..
He needs to have 4 bags to raise his hemoglobin back to the 100 mark.. Luckily RMC has a spare of B+ tonight..
Please keep those prayers coming for our papa.. We love you all and God bless you and your family.. ♥
04.01.2017 UPDATE: Papa had his CBC last night..
04.02.2017 UPDATE: Papa’s hemoglobin count as of today is 77.. We have not reached the 100 mark yet.. Please keep those prayers coming.. ♥